Chapter 1: The Spiritual Journey

Recently, I’ve been contemplating my spiritual journey and the topics I feel compelled to explore and share. I've openly discussed the difficulties I've faced along this path. Writing about these struggles helps me process my feelings and release them, enabling me to move forward. Moreover, it’s comforting to know that sharing my experiences can resonate with others who might feel isolated in their own challenges.

However, much of the available literature seems directed at religious individuals, which doesn’t encompass everyone’s experience. For instance, when I’m in distress, reading scripture doesn’t provide the solace it might offer someone with a different background. For me, it’s crucial to discover what resonates personally.

Last night, I decided to disconnect from everything and simply rest in the darkness. There are moments when I hit what feels like a spiritual low, prompting me to retreat and reflect. During such times, I find that expressing my thoughts to the universe acts as a form of therapy.

This practice of releasing pent-up emotions has consistently brought me relief. It reminded me of past experiences filled with overwhelming feelings—fear, anxiety, and various spiritual lows.

There’s a wealth of guidance available on cultivating a spiritual practice, understanding one's beliefs, and navigating through spiritual lows. In my opinion, the most valuable advice is to sit quietly, listen to your emotions, and speak freely. You might be astonished by what emerges from within.

For instance, last night, I discovered feelings of anger that I had buried deep. I felt abandoned and exhausted from struggling. It frustrated me to see others navigate life without the burdens I carry—issues of discrimination, access, and poverty.

In that moment, I realized my frustration was aimed at the universe itself. While my program encourages letting go of resentment toward our biological parents and focusing on a higher power, I had already distanced myself from my mother for over a decade. My feelings toward her have shifted from anger to indifference, as I recognize that holding onto anger only grants her undue power over my life.

However, my resentment toward the universe proved more challenging. It simmered beneath the surface, unnoticed until I released it during my reflection. This process allowed me to let go of some feelings, at least temporarily. I understand that regularly revisiting these emotions is essential, as humans tend to pick up burdens we believe we've already set down. It requires ongoing practice, and I’m still working on it.

I've come to realize that much of my struggle stems from neglecting my spiritual life. It’s easy to overlook the joys in life when caught in survival mode. I’ve been attempting to shed the notion that our identities must be tied to our achievements and societal standards of success.

My circumstances don’t align with those of many others, and perhaps that’s the hidden blessing I’ve been overlooking. This reality grants me the freedom to focus on my writing and spend time with my family. I’ve recognized that this blessing can expand, potentially allowing me to engage in service, which has always held significance for me.

Navigating life on a tight budget is far from easy, especially for a family. Many of my spiritual lows stem from the weight of these financial concerns. Carrying this burden doesn’t alter my situation; it only breeds bitterness, and I refuse to become that person.

Bitterness clouds my capacity to engage with my spiritual life, and I must learn to release it. When I manage to let it go, I find a sense of calm and trust that everything will ultimately work out. While it doesn’t change my external circumstances, my internal struggles are the real obstacles preventing me from taking future steps and remaining open to new possibilities.

Perhaps what I need at any given moment is more vital than what I desire. I can yearn for a better life or a place that meets all my criteria, but attaining those things won’t inherently open me up to new experiences. By freeing myself from burdensome emotions, I become more appreciative and grateful for whatever comes next.

This process allows me to reintegrate a spiritual practice that I often set aside while trapped in survival mode, fostering a deeper trust in the universe. Although the path remains challenging, I feel it has become more manageable as I return to the essentials.

If you're facing struggles, my suggestion is to return to the basics. If you know something used to work for you, take the time to revisit it. Remember, baby steps are always better than standing still.

Section 1.1: Understanding Spiritual Detox

In moments of emotional distress, it’s essential to recognize the process of spiritual detoxification. This involves releasing negative energies and emotions that weigh us down.

Chapter 2: Navigating Emotional Cycles

Understanding the emotional cycles we experience is vital in our spiritual journey. These cycles often present challenges that can lead to significant personal growth.

The second video titled The Emotional Purging Cycles (and how to deal with them) | Kundalini Awakening Stages explores how we can effectively manage these cycles and their impact on our spiritual awakening.