Chapter 1: Awakening from a Long Slumber

After enduring an extended period of detachment from the cultural and political dynamics that shaped the past two decades, I am finally emerging from my experience with schizophrenia.

It's akin to living in a real-life version of the Matrix, where every foreign film feels like I am the protagonist. The world appears as a jigsaw puzzle—some pieces are familiar while others are still alien to me.

The disorientation of not recognizing reality can be overwhelming. I'm unsure of the authenticity of those around me; they seem almost divine. While I believe in a singular God, the myriad of angelic figures surrounding me often leave me perplexed.

Though I struggle to articulate the supernatural events in my life, it's comforting to know that some perceive these occurrences as well. However, I understand the skepticism surrounding my experiences with the divine.

What about the ten-dollar bill, you ask?

Today, I had the opportunity to purchase a secondhand electronic notebook for ten dollars. After my primary laptop malfunctioned, I found myself navigating a creative journey involving battery chargers and lavender diffusers to cool it down.

At 3 AM, I discovered the listing on Facebook, and to my delight, it was located nearby. I messaged the seller and went to sleep, hopeful for a positive response.

When I awoke, I found that the seller confirmed it was still available for pick-up after 4 PM. I accepted the offer but was left pondering how to secure the ten dollars.

While I had a small amount in the bank, I lacked cash on hand. I contemplated various avenues to obtain the money, but ultimately decided to wait and see how the day unfolded.

As I reflected, I wondered if the device was functional, as the listing was vague. I had already committed to the purchase, but I didn't want to end up with another useless electronic device.

I delved deep to discern the right course of action. It felt presumptuous to inquire about the device's condition, as it might imply I doubted its quality, possibly causing the seller to miss out on other interested buyers.

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After much contemplation, I finally found a simple solution to acquire the ten dollars.

What does ten dollars signify today? For a mother in need of diapers, it represents a well-cared-for child. For a billionaire, it’s merely pocket change. For me, it translates to the effort I put into crafting daily essays, as I strive to keep up with the algorithms.

I thought about asking a neighbor, but hesitated, considering their potential financial struggles amidst the high cost of living. Selling an item crossed my mind, as did making a trip to the bank, which would only waste gas.

Ultimately, my father gently suggested, "Michelle, why not ask if they have a charger for the device? This might indicate your expectation that it works."

Taking his advice, I inquired. The seller replied with honesty, stating they would check for a charger but likely didn’t have one.

This revelation was enlightening. If they couldn't find a charger, it likely meant the device hadn't been in use recently. Drawing from past experiences, I politely declined the purchase.

Thanks to my father's insight, I avoided spending ten dollars on something that could have been useless. For me, that amount holds significant value, as I pour my heart and soul into every piece I write.

Schizophrenia can sometimes offer unique benefits, allowing for deeper connections with the divine. Many, like myself, manage their conditions through therapy and medication while exploring new hobbies. Today, I even reorganized my patio!

Peace be with all across the globe! I managed without overheating!

Ah, the time spent in contemplation is invaluable—perhaps the greatest gift we can give ourselves.

With love to my dad, grandma, and all my friends in heaven!

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Chapter 2: The Value of Ten Dollars in Modern Life

The first video, "Dollar Bill Drop | Introduction to Psychology," delves into the psychological implications of currency and its perceived value.

The second video, "Consider your tastes for five dollar bills and ten dollar bills," explores how personal preferences influence our financial choices.